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sometimes I just think this is the test from hell, you know if daniel and I make it through this terrible time of me being angry and resentful for coming out here and not having work and if he continues to sit with me and give me hugs while I cry then we know all of its been worth it, and when we learn this lesson then work will come to me, like it did with the CIHR.

I feel myself slipping into more and more depression, not wanting to go outside, not wanting anything but to wake up from this nightmare and find out that yes I do have a job, I am back in Ontario and life is back to the norm. I feel like such a bitch for thinking that, daniel has been nothing but supportive and loving to me and I just want to leave and go back to my safety zone.

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POSTED ON 2003-11-04 AT 2:34 p.m.

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