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Wow what a holiday season, abit strange no having any family around but alright no less. We spent Cmas together playing with toys and eating lots of sweets, not good for D but we had a good time.

On my birthday D went and bought me a cake which was so nice, candles and everything, then we went out into the boxing day madness, and bought two DVDs Harry Potter and Two towers, we spent the remainder of the day just laying about watching DVDs, the extended version of LOTR-TT is so much better then the version that made it to the big screen, I was impressed.

Mom called me today to tell me Cordelia died on Dec 23rd, they didn't want to ruin my Cmas so they waited to tell me, its a good thing I forgot to ask for Cordelia Cmas pics, they would have felt guilty. I feel guilty because I never really connected with her the way I did with Abbie, I only halfed missed her when I moved to Vancouver, and we have been planning on a pet for a while now which has been decided will be a cat. When mom told me I just kinda felt that it was meant to be, I could not carry part of my life from Hickville to here, not something physical anyway, I need to let go and forget that part of my life since I hated it so much, its almost painful to think of those long ten months (shutter). So she is at peace now, I feel bad that most of her life was spent in a petstore or caged up she didn't get the freedom Abbie had, she didnt feel the love Abbie did and I have no 'fun' or 'loving' memories of her, she is like those poor Romanian children brought to the States but Americans and now that they are three years old are up for adoption again because they could not break the habits of orphanage living.

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POSTED ON 2003-12-28 AT 8:51 p.m.

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